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Thursday, August 12, 2010

I've found joy...


quite easily now I've stopped to look....in the simple things.
Is it any surprise...really?
After all the drama and grief of late it really is no surprise it is indeed the simple things I have turned to to rediscover my joy.
Lately amidst it all there has been the elation in finding green tree frogs hiding in my bromeliads...
and just a little disappointment in finding this one who has only one battle scarred eye. But alas his beauty and green-ness and mere presence in my space is proof enough of the welcoming environment my garden provides to such delicate little beings...joy indeed I tell you!
And in addition to that there is the joy in teaching my girl to embroider. Oh yes.
Her own pattern drawn straight on some calico....who else but Zeus our beloved old chihuahua...who I think would truly prefer to be left alone than smothered in the love this girl needs to lavish on him. It's a funny tug of war this one. But one that has ended in a delightfully cute piece of stitching. I'm rather proud.
And then there is the joy of natural play. The kind of joy that comes after the nervousness of some serious pruning in the garden. Where the fear of the change actually ends in thankfulness for the courage....and some perfect prunings of hollow papaya and mulberry branches that make perfect drums and perfect drumsticks. A sound from heaven for sure.
Enough to go with winter garden colour and of course warmth.
The fire pit is still in use and has warmed many a toe after recent long emotional days.

And on that note I must say sorry for seeming so cryptic of late....
and without trying to continue on that theme....thank you for the wishes of wellness over the last two weeks.
I am seeing the end of the journey I hope.
Without ethically and legally saying too much....my job involves caring for those with an inability to do so themselves and who are therefore vulnerable and dependent in so many unimaginable ways.
It took until now to realise that the vulnerability I support and protect in others also stretches to reach myself.
Sometimes the very thing we work to prevent happens and we need to bid farewell and in doing so take a good look at ourselves, our morals, our fortune, our reasons, our strengths and our weaknesses. Sometimes things happen that make us revisit and question and frighteningly be questioned. It shakes us.
Sometimes things happen that make us wonder why we even do what we do....briefly. Sometimes they happen, I have realised, to confirm why we do what we do.
Sometimes an ending for some leads to, I believe, flight...

and eventually joy.

What is your joy right now?

10 comments:

Bec said...

what a lovely post Leanne, I love green tree frogs nad it has been so long since I have seen one that your photo brought a smile to my face. Pop over and visit me sometime, i only just wrote about my renewed joy in yoga.

julie paterson - garden said...

Hi Leanne, love the pictures & your blogspot..the innocence of children always makes me smile - particularly being the mumma of a beautiful 3yr old - Ruby Jane...(not too sure what u have been through of late, but hopefully u are now on the other side...sometimes life sends us cryptic messages & it is often a way of telling us to stop, slow down & take time out & looking at your current post - seems that's just what u need...) xxx

Amanda said...

I am glad you've found joy. I hope your journey ends in peace.

So those logs are naturally hollow? How cool is that!?

Kelly said...

There is solace and joy in simple things and answers too. Blessings to you always.

Sonya said...

Hope things get better for you very soon...

Elflyn said...

Ah Leanne, so glad you are starting to see light at the end of the tunnel.
Right now I am finding joy in the end of this Winter and most importantly that my littlest one has been given a clean bill of health.
Enjoy your peace!
X
Jen

Tricia said...

Lovely embroidery...and I can just imagine your delight at finding the frog.

I’m very glad to hear you are nearing the end of your troubled times. I hope that you now find yourself in a better place than you were before the drama.

Warm wishes,
Tricia

Madeline said...

This really is lovely, Leanne. Life is full of ups and downs. I'm so glad that you and joy have found one another again. And, yes, joy and simplicity go together so very well.

tikje wit said...

Your Joy makes me smile... especially the work of your crafting daughter; Enjoy Leanne!

sophie munns said...

Hello Leanne,
Im thinking that I may have experienced a work situation not unlike what you intimate...and it tests you to the core of you being - courage is what sees you through....
I feel for you....and wish you well!
love and much joy be yours,
Sophie xo