I cleaned the house today. I've vacuumed, dusted, mopped, hung out washing and even cleaned windows and scrubbed the shower. And in true and fascinating form my mind predictably wandered far and wide as I worked.
It wandered to the abundance of talk in blog land lately about how "real life" is not always so squeaky clean....of how sometimes we can set a standard for ourselves or create a desire for something quite unrealistic. I agree..... I know this..... sometimes I still do this.... yet I like to think most times I don't.
Then my mind wandered further while my arms were in the air pegging clothes to the line. I had thought quite a bit lately that I had changed....a lot....in the last year. I think it began about the time my little guy started moving around and making his own additional mark on my home. I thought about how I had started to not clean so much and... not really worry too much about it. So I started to think about why?
It was then that I realised within almost the same moment that I'm also really really good at making excuses. Excuses! That makes me guilty of placing at least some unrealistic expectations on myself despite liking to think most times I don't. So just because I think I have changed because I don't physically clean so much doesn't mean that it doesn't bother me in some way to make excuses for it. I'm still attached to the thought that my home should be clean.
It seems I still have some mental housekeeping to do to detach myself from these thoughts....because like a lot of blog land is getting at....it really is unimportant. So pardon me please....while I disentangle myself from the dust, cobwebs, spilt food and smudgy fingerprints of my mind....and really stop worrying about whether I clean the house or not.
But before I get to that wholeheartedly and just for today, to practice being in the moment too of course, I'm really going to love the fact that my house is quiet, tidy and scrubbed clean!
Have you seen the new "in real life" flickr group?
It's quite fun and heartwarming and best of all...grounding.